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  1. 18 points
    The last two days have giving me great satisfaction. For the first time in a very long time I have felt wanted and respected. The first one was on tuesday i turned up to work (arvo/night shift). I started here in December. Went to my clipboard to check my client list for the shift. My payslip was there as usual but so was a card. A birthday card. I hadnt even told them. There was a gift card in there too but the best thing was the messages from all those work there. The messages were very touching to me and a one of acceptance and genuine want. Number 2 was yesterday (my actual bday). A guy with MS, a mum of a swimmer i have helped and a client who did rehab with post Cervical spine fusion took me out to lunch. Their words during lunch were very touching and a bit emotional. Both these experiences made me feel uncomfortable as it was unexpected but also very rare for me. So the take away i have got from these two days is 1. I have worth in my role and am respected. 2. I have some real friends 3. I have stuck to my guns and finally seeing some positives. 4. Dont change you because you are not the right fit for others. Find the right fit for you.
  2. 17 points
    https://www.facebook.com/RunWith.com.au/ www.runwith.com.au After two years of thought and banging on about my new shop. It's finally here (well stage 1 is). RunWith will open (stage 1) on the 13th January, 2018. This will be the Retail/Online and run group side of things. The prehab/rehab/recovery centre (Stage 2) will open about 4-6 weeks after this, with a runners gym and Normatec recovery systems. Then Alter G/Hot and Cold pools not far behind (Stage 3, expected June '18). In total, it's about 420sqm of fun. Stock might be a touch thin on the retail side of things, but will be a lot better as the months go on (I expect to be at full strength somewhere around the end of March, subject to suppliers being able to get stuff to me). I've got plenty of the bigger brands, a couple of smaller ones and at least two that at the moment are unique to RunWith. I have all the staples to get started and look forward to adding things as they come into store. If you happen to pop past the store for a tour and a yarn, I'll have some of Skulduggery's finest (Hey Burgs and Dan Wilson's brew) to share and tunes going from a few local record labels. If you know of a good quality local brand that can add to the RunWith community please let me know (the more the merrier). As a thanks to everyone here for providing advice/support and to Roxii for letting me advertise here, the code below will give you 20% off everything in store and online till the end of January (20% will be added to the value of gift cards)*. Further to this, I'm giving 2% of all sales made through this discount code back to Transitions - I know Roxii puts a bit of coin into the site and it's a little way to give back to the place that's given us all a lot at times (adding Transitions as your 'group' in your account will also give you 9% off everything store wide at all times** and will continue to give 2% to Transitions, yes - I can make this available to other clubs, email willie@runwith.com.au) CODE: IAMATRANNIE - This code will be good till the end of January and will not be repeated. Generally speaking, this will be the first and last time I offer a dramatic discount. BONUS: Spend over $200 in one transaction in January 2018 and I'll send you a RunWith shirt to wear, you'll be able to select your size in checkout if you qualify. Sweet huh? Website will go live Monday 8th January, with as many products as I can manage to put up there between now and Launch. If there is something missing, that I may stock or should stock please comment below or send an email to info@runwith.com.au and I'll try and work it out for you. If you need any advice, help, suggest products, suggest clubs or sponsorships, offer support or simply want to yell abuse ( ) down the phone my number is 0404 133 183 or willie@runwith.com.au * Please note 20% off not valid on Electronics. Gift Cards bought with this discount are not able to be used to purchase electronics. ** Subject to change without notice.
  3. 15 points
    Straight to the pool room...
  4. 15 points
    Race report- Arrived at our accom on saturday before the race. Conditions were perfect, clear blue sky and mild temps perfect for racing. We checked out the finish line and finish straight which was cool and almost emotional as I said in another post, seeing the place where the bombs went off was confronting. Sunday the weather started turning, we had a max of 2 with feel temp reaching well below 0, light frozen rain all day. We did though meet up with a few aussies on the start line one of which is part of the indigenous marathon project and currently doing a doco on indigenous runners. He had a good chat with Bill Rogers which was really interesting to hear. Race morning we woke to solid rain which you could hear all night. I woke up at midnight and couldn't sleep. I spent 2 hours discussing race attire with Willie, being abused by Prizna to get back to sleep and some last minute well wishes from my physio. I also posted on insta. Cause thats what u do at 1.30am before a race... anyways i found an old nike storm jacket i packed which i had never used, I also scrapped the idea of using a singlet and went with a light thermal and my jacket which had removable arms. I left the hotel room at 540am to get to the buses at 6am. On top of the race attire i also had a $10 jumper i bought the day before and a poncho. I walked half way to the buses through a shopping mall then exited jist before the finish line. I put the poncho on straight away as it was pouring and windy. Gloves were instantly soaked through same as my shoes. It was freezing. I got on the bus and got talking to and american doing his 6th boston and a Danish guy doing his 1st. About 30min into the trip I noticed white stuff beside the road, which of course was snow. As we pulled up the snow got thicker on the side of the road and i noticed alot of the house roofs were covered in it... it was still pouring rain. It was 7.33 am, race start 10am. Once in the athlete village you have 2 large white marquees to choose from. I went into the second which was smaller. When i walked in there was one small black piece of plastic that bridged the mud into the tent it was only about 30cm wide and filling with water pretty quick. I walked to the back of the tent and then realised I was quickly going to be trapped in here surrounded by mud so I left. I looked across the park and there was 3 cliff tents (they were the nutrition on course) I walked in and half a dozen athletes were sitting in chairs with blankets and heaters. I figured they were sponsored and asked if I could please have one of the hats they had on the table and grabbed a cliff bar and went to walk out when they offered me a chair, blanket and right next to a heater. Winning! I spent the next 2 hours in there talking crap with 30 odd Americans and one other Australian from adelaide. That was the most comfortable I was all day. At 915 we left our sanctuary in the clif tent and made the 1 mile walk to the start. Still in everything including poncho as it was still pouring rain and house roofs were still covered in snow! The start was very similar to gold coast where it' a straight line and they separate you into your start coral which is based on qualifying time. Due to the weather I don't know if we all the normal hoo haa went on. I had been told we were going to have a jet fly over but never saw that. I got to the start coral about 1 min before the start and removed the arms from my jacket. The gun went and off we go. It's basically all downhill and very tight for the first 10k. I had made a consious choice to just run by feel and enjoy the race as much as I could. It was still pouring it just hadn't let up. I couldn't feel my feet the first 5k and i was completely saturated right through basically from the moment I removed my poncho and jumper. There was people running in ponchos, jackets and shower caps!?! It was an interesting experience that's for sure... I spent the first 15k steadily overtaking people and went through 10k a touch over 4min k pace. That's alright, I felt good, held same pace through 15k then around 20k I stopped overtaking people and slotted in with a group. The head wind was pretty brutal. It was cold and blowing rain in your face. I was glad I got the hat from clif as It really kept the rain out of my eyes. It also helped keep my head a bit dryer and warmer with my beanie under. At some point I heard this noise, it just kept getting louder and louder, then I saw the Wellesley college sign. Yep I know where I am now. It was exactly as described. Thousands of girls screaming at the top of their lungs offering kisses to all the passing runners. I saw a few guys stop and take up the offer but I held my spot in the middle and just smiled and laughed at the craziness of it all. The guys in the tent said if you get through 16m feeling good you've set up a good race. If your quads are hurting there then you're not going to have a good day. My quads were smashed... and they were right it was the beginning of the end for me. I wasn't too stressed I just soaked up the moment and enjoyed the crowd. I struggled home the last 10k in about 51min even though it was mostly down hill. But I spent most of it high fiving fist pumping the crowd. Coming into town and turning left onto Boylston st. Wow. I was being overtaken left right and centre but couldn't care less. This was like the biggest ironman finish shute you can imagine. It's about 800m long, 4 and 5 people deep the entire street in pouring rain and it was amazing. I enjoyed every step of that straight run to the finish. I had a goal for the day of 2.45, for a number of reasons and not just the weather I don't think that was achieveable for me on the day. To finish the way I did was disappointing to fade so badly but it's a lesson learnt. 3.04.48 was the official time. I'm keen to head back to do this race again hopefully with better weather and with a much stronger result. For anyone thinking of doing this race the only thing I can compare it to is city to surf. 1 way race. Rolling hills the whole way. Crowd lining the whole route. It's and amazing experience and the whole atmosphere around the event is amazing. Ps my girlfriend thinks I look like forest Gump with the hat on...
  5. 15 points
    Was chatting this morning about my year last year and the role this thread played in it all. The conversation made me feel the need to pop in and say thank you to all of you for listening to me when I needed it most. I also wanted to make sure anyone who needed it right now knows there is someone here (although I'm sure we all are), if it's needed. And finally, if anyone at all needs a private chat about anything, drop me a line, please.
  6. 14 points
    Swim, Ride, Run - there.... it's Tri related. I hope everyone has a great Christmas and New Year. Be safe and at peace with yourself over this time. Reflect on the good and learn from your experiences. Don't be afraid to reach out and talk about "stuff" if you need to. This time of year is also about giving an ear, smile and shoulder. Problems are a lot easier when you talk about them. You cannot change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future. Cheers all FM
  7. 13 points
    Well it turns out an ironman is a long way. A really long way. wow, what a day. It's going to take me a little while to get my head around that.
  8. 13 points
    Best news this week after 7 months of tricky stuff. Short version: mid September in small town rural France Mr T had a week in hospital after sudden haematurea. Stabilised, camera for a look, cauterise, biopsy. The French medical system is awesome: competent, thorough and cheap. We finished our holiday, urologist emailed the pathology the day we left Singapore to come home (good medicine to hold it back while we enjoyed ourselves and tried to stay unstressed). Muscle invasive bladder cancer, no previous symptoms. Bugger. Fast track GP, the best urologist in Sydney for this surgery, pre-op physio, surgery mid November, 2 weeks in hospital. Came home with a new bladder made out of a bit of small intestine. Lots of work still to be done on pelvic floor but no bag. Chemo finished before Easter. First post op scan this week is CLEAR Still a long way to go to the final all-clear, but this was a big hurdle. Now he can start to plan retirement activities, at least medium term. I nearly put this in the mental health thread a while ago, but it belongs here, not there. We’ve been so well supported that mentally we’ve both been very aware but not deeply troubled.
  9. 13 points
    Haha I'm more than happy to cop it on the chin! I love riding a bike hard, that's for sure... It's interesting how different the half and full distance racing is from a pacing and nutrition standpoint and unlocking it is a bloody tough puzzle. In saying that though, when guys are going 7.40-8hr for a full, that is fast. I'm lucky enough to still be in my last year of uni and have relatively little expenses which gives me the opportunity to go into races with the freedom to put it all on the line. I've done 40 halves and started 4 fulls and to be honest, a lot have contained a lpt of physical suffering at the back end. The days when things pay off though feel bloody awesome! I'll come out with likely a slight different game plan at Port Mac, but make no mistake I don't know if I'll ever be a guy happy to sit in a bunch at 250w while there's guys getting 10min up the road.. All good though, I'm confident I'll podium at one of these bloody things one day in the future.
  10. 13 points
    The contents of the gear bag is pretty lean. But who cares when you get a hand written note from a local school kid. Thank you Hamish of room 11, best thing I’ve ever received in a gear bag.
  11. 13 points
    As I said, apologies Im really busy at the moment. I have answered these briefly for now. I will maybe expand on a few points if there is interest or answer any additional questions if there is any. Thanks Tyno. 1.Roxii, can you give us a quick rundown of your tri history – notable events, rep teams, KWC wins etc? Kicked off with the Canobolas Tri in Orange in 1991, was won by Jabbs. Was just something I was doing with a few mates for shits and giggles and I supposed I got hooked. Did Ironman for the first time in 1996 and managed to go round 11 times. PB was 10.46, my run always let me down, no matter how much or how hard I trained never seemed to be any good once I got beyond 20 odd k’s in the run. Probably most proud of my 4.45 Half Ironman at Forster, probably my best put together race on a hot day. My only KWC trophy was a first in a team. KWC has always had guns turn up (Michellie and Welchy were regulars in the early days and Gwen lately) so I was never gunna win that, even Yo-Yo came down to KWC once. I competed in the 09 Worlds as a member of team Ireland. I had hopes of trying to make the Aus team but came down with whooping cough during the qualifying series. Doing a WC was one thing I wanted to do before giving it away, as was my plan back then. Just never got around to retiring. 2. What about the earlier sports back ground, going back to the school days? I went to Catholic schools so rugby league was the sport. As with pretty much my entire life, I have always been able to turn my hand to anything, but only to a mediocre level, which actually ends up ok as a triathlete as being OK at all three and not having a significant weakness usually ends up with you being above average overall. 3. As the sole owner/proprietor here....for those that don't know, how did it all start for you – what lead to your takeover from Queen B?...and what about some early memories from the first few months in charge? I had offered to buy the site off Bernie when she started taking a back seat, but she declined. I didn’t think anything more of it and then a few years later out of the blue she sent me an email asking if I was interested. I wasn’t the first she had offered it to, I think Trev was first. I discussed it with the Mrs and she was cool so it all went through pretty quickly. The main reason I bought it was that this place had been pretty good to me and I knew how much of a good community it was and I didn’t want it being bastardised if it went elsewhere. I had already been moderating and that is by far harder than “owning” the site. My biggest issue is that I’m a computer numpty so I’m indebted to Stu (TenPints) for his help. 4. What about some of those early memories and famous/infamous names past. Are you happy you didn’t have to deal with some of the historical histrionics? Do you miss some of the action of the good old days? There were some funny times back in the day and yeah sometimes I miss it but I don’t think it is the site or triathlon that has forced that change it is simply a sign of the times. You simply can’t say and do the things you used to be able to say and do and get away with it any more. I have the legal letters to prove it. I’m lucky that a few of the “characters” I’m still in touch with, I get to see Gunther pretty regularly and he is still good for a laugh. 5. Are you happy with the current direction and feeling around the board and site as a whole? What would you like to see change or be added if you had the time/resources? Yeah on the whole, as long as you are all happy, Im happy. Obvioulsy I’d like to see more people contributing, especially when I know how many people read here. I am toying with the idea of stopping the “website” part and just bringing the new articles into the forum like I was toying with in the News and Reviews tab. While I enjoyed doing the website, a combination of things have made it more difficult. Obviously the tornado wrecking the house put things on hold for the best part of a year, also now with so many social media streams a lot of the “press release” are already out there as quickly as I can put them online, and pro athletes are also the same with their social stuff, plus my work is very busy at the moment and I have taken on more responsibility so it cuts into a bit of my spare time. I need to talk to Stu about implementing all this (and I feel really bad as he had built the site for me) and also want to look at incorporating the Transitions.net.au url and eventually go away from the .org.au url. 6. If there are things you’d like to improve, but currently can’t, could you see yourself putting a For Sale sign up? How many 6 packs would it take? If someone made a decent offer AND had the right intentions I would be happy to offload it, but all that being said its not much of a burden. It costs $130 US a month to keep it online and 99.9% of the time you guys behave and there is not much to do. Im a bit disappointed at how hard it has been to get some financial support/ sponsors from the industry. To be honest Ive given up. I would have thought of all the media streams a forum would be among the most beneficial. It has been proven that you guys will actively support good sponsors, and it’s the one media stream where people revisit (often) giving much more exposure to a brand. If I could get a few “partners” on board to cover costs that would be nice. 7. Does the forum gives you any kind of fame or notoriety far beyond your Shire roots? Does it open any doors in the industry? Does it ever make it more difficult for you? Yes, Yes and Yes. I already knew quite a few people from being around for a while and being from the shire but also having been training with a few different groups and clubs. But yeah the biggest shock was the first year, only a few months after taking over, going to Port and having Pete Murray come up and say “Hey Geoff Meyer wants to speak to you”, I said “Yeah sure who is Geoff Meyer” and Pete told me he was the boss of Ironman Asia Pacific. My first though was “Oh crap, what have we done now!” but he was great and saw the value of having a good relationship with Transitions. Similar when Phil Dally was head of TNSW, we got on great and he would give me plenty of great info (on and off the record) and I in turn would help TNSW out where I could. Unfortunately now that Geoff and Phil have moved on I have lost good relationships at Ironman and TNSW that haven’t continued since they moved on. One of my biggest bug bears is that TA will not engage with me (with the exception of legal threats), I made many attempts early on but kept getting palmed off or passed around to the point where I stopped bothering. I have tried to ask questions on “our” behalf and get promises but no follow up, its frustrating and I don’t think reflects well on the organisation and I suppose is just and extension of member frustration that you guys have expressed about lack of transparency and member accountability and now that Geoff and Phil have moved on I have lost good relationships at Ironman and TNSW that haven’t continued since they moved on. 8. The early days of the forum had a number of big hitters hanging around, would you like to see that sort of scenario return or do you accept it’s a different time and only some, like Bergs, will jump in every now and then? Yeah I think we all appreciate when the pro’s get involved here but as alluded to earlier they all have their own media and social media to look after too, plus I believe they need to do a bit of training, and occasionally when they come to places like this there will be one or two smartarses that want to tell pros how much they know, or how the pro is doing it all wrong and you could understand why they would not want to waste their time and effort on engaging. I think we are lucky enough that Bergs has a thick skin and a good sense of humour, plus we have Lachie who knows us all pretty well warts and all as he has been here a while. I think we may have blown our chance with PJ though. 9. Going back a long time there has been talk of people being happy to contribute to running costs and to help the owner make a bit of coin. Is this something you have thought about or are there mysterious benefactors who are putting some cash in behind the scenes? Nah at the moment it’s all coming out of my pocket. I’m ok with that it’s not a huge burden but I probably need to get off my arse and try and find a few sponsors/ partners/ whatever to try and cover the running costs and maybe make enough for a beer or two. 10. If you could change one thing in the world of tri (ANYTHING tri related), what would it be? (For the purposes of this exercise, you have a GOD like power to make the change happen and smooth any negative issues it might have.) Id simply like it to flourish, by whatever means that takes. If it meant races where easier to put on and cheaper to enter then that would be my one wish. It is a great sport (we all know that) and a great community (we know that too) and Id like more people, especially kids, to be able to experience that.
  12. 13 points
    The time you cross the finish line is irrelevant my friend, and the majority in this chosen sport of ours will applaud the fact that you turned up to the start and cheer your finish - whoever you are and however long it takes.
  13. 13 points
    I spoke to my dad again yesterday, he's very up and down still, Is spending quite a bit of time with his doctors etc, which i expect, he has a long road to go. It dawned on me on my trip home from Broome that i have never actually done anything with my dad, just him and I, he's traveled to Europe with one brother and lots of time spent with my other brother, but nothing with me, so I mentioned to my wife that i'd like to do something with him, try and mend a relationship thats not been strong at any point in time, and being that i love the nth West of Australia and the bush i figured why not get him to come over here to Karratha and ill take him on a two week camping trip up through the Kimberley, just swagging it and ill drop him at Kununnurra and send him home from there, show him a bit of my backyard. I mentioned this to him yesterday and he said he would really love that, i heard a bit of excitement in his voice, so the planning is underway for hopefully next August when its cooler for him to fly over here and go away with me for a couple of weeks. Hopefully the doctor will give him clearance to fly as currently he cannot due to pressure in his brain that they are trying to get on top of.
  14. 12 points
    ***update*** we spoke at length to each other honestly at 2am yesterday after we finished packing for our holiday, she assures me that she still loves me and there are no immediate issues needed to resolve. She’s admitted she’s dealing with some stuff privately between her and her councillor but as I thought these relate to her childhood, she opened up a bit about it. These sessions have brought up a lot of stuff and she is dealing as best she can which is causing stresses and those are coming out in ways I described earlier. We both admitted we could get a tune up (as goughy mentioned so have agreed to do that) but only when she is on top of the other stuff first, I don’t want to overload her. Clearly she still thinks my moustache is seriously cool 😉 thanks for the messages and advice! I appreciate them all
  15. 12 points
    All my christmasses came at once last Friday afternoon, with an email from Ironman guaranteeing my legacy slot in the 2019 race. I've now got 18 months to plan the race and holiday of my lifetime. To get a 2019 70.3WC slot for Nice and racing Kona would be an epic combo. Need to improve my 70.3 times. I'll be trawling through Mungo's Kona advice thread, for specifics about Kona and things to do. (http://forums.transitions.org.au/topic/70544-kona-advice-please/?tab=comments#comment-1199016) However, is there any specific advice/tips from previous legacy racers, that a Kona first timer should know about the legacy functions, benefits, socials etc?
  16. 12 points
    I couldn’t find the thread with the Busso bet with IronmanFoz (Search function sucks) I bet him a cartoon of beer Wurf would go sub4hrs on the bike. Foz said not to worry about it. I lost & I pay my bets no matter what. So have donated to a local Charity called Backpacks 4 SA kids. I found some old ironman backpacks. We then got brushes, toiletries, clothing etc and filled them for three young girls. I spent over a carton of beer. I now consider the bet settled.
  17. 12 points
    Look at other people your age. I'm about to turn 40. Plenty of 40 year olds look younger than me but shit a lot of them are fatter & look older. My daughters school had a 3km fun run on Thursday & I was the only parent to run it with the kids. Plenty of parents watching. Lots had "injuries" After the run, one of the teachers said to me " you can tell your kid a hundred times a day you love them, what you just did proves you love her"
  18. 11 points
    For f.*ck sake, let’s get back to enjoying an event. One km here, one km there. Big deal. Enjoy the event, enjoy catching up with friends, enjoy the Beer Mile - enjoy the photo below. It’s about enjoying catching up with memories and mates that come around once a year. It’s about giving the support and words to every single person that runs past you. It’s about getting EVEYONE across the finish line. It’s about hugging and kissing friends. It’s about stepping back and appreciating the human sprint. It’s even tonight, about Coffs Pete handing out vouchers for pizza at IM to people he doesn’t really know. FM
  19. 11 points
    Great day out. Saw a few trannie hats on the run and spoke to a couple of dudes helping in T2 who mentioned iFoz having technical drama on the bike? A PB for me at 11:32 , I was on a promise with my cardiologist to keep the HR in Z2 which I did with the exception of a couple of the bigger hills. Petty happy.
  20. 11 points
    Wow, wow, wow. It's been a fking awesome day today and in fact 2018 has been really good for the bored@ family. After a terrible race at Ironman Chattanooga and the company I work for losing a major contract, that I have been on for 15 years. I decided to retire from racing. My plan was to concentrate on my career, study, getting a new house and one other thing that I still want to keep under wraps. Had my performance review for work last week and got a "significantly exceeded" with a comment about being identified as a future leader in the business and a resource the business wants to retain. The people who know the industry & company, I work for will know how huge this is and how much I love my job and what it means to me. Almost teared up in my review. We moved into our new house on Friday & couldn't be happier, we love the house and area. Today my boss approved $15k worth of training courses. Then at 2pm today I received an email confirming I'll get another crack at the thing I tried 22 years ago & failed. Then I received an email from Ironmanfoz with the great news about being selected to receive his very generous offer and opportunity to race in the USA again. I love the USA & love racing over there. This was the kick in the pants/motivation I needed to get back into racing. Chattanooga still hurts and bothers me but it's time to get back on the horse and give it another crack. I wish I could express my gratitude and thanks to Ironmanfoz in person. Words just don't do justice to the way I'm feeling right now. Thanks mate. Knowing you have given me this very generous offer will definitely help out on those training days when I'm feeling tired & lacking motivation. 2018 Goals are all done & dusted and it's only March.
  21. 11 points
    Active has always taken the first bite.
  22. 11 points
    Checking in, doing ok. Back at work full time. Packed up his shit. He's gone now. I'm moving on.
  23. 11 points
    Loose 10kg... 3 days left and only 15 kg to go
  24. 11 points
  25. 11 points
    Hello everyone. Long time, no check in. Much has happened since I was last here, around September 2016. I'll try and catch you up in as few words as possible. After becoming suicidal, and reaching the lowest point in my life, I ended up failing three subjects at uni in semester 2. This ended up adding a year to my course. I was devastated. But I pulled up my big girl pants and eventually got on with it. At some point, I don't really recall when, I stopped the ADs with great success. Early in 2017, the bloke got work (I think, the timeline is a bit hazy). He was (is) working up north so wasn't around much. I starting seeing how life was going to be without him in it. The critical day occurred on 15 March 2017. I had just arrived home from my 4th night shift. He has done fark-all as usual, leaving everything around the house for me to do. It suddenly occurred to me that it was more difficult for me for him to be in my life. So, I threw him out. He left that day and that was that. He now stays with his parents when he's not at work and has all of his belongings in storage. There are so, so many other things that have happened I won't go into, these are kind of the highlights. Since that day though, I have refinanced the house which ahs allowed me to live reasonably comfprtably, have started working full time, am doing reasonably well at uni (repeating the failed subjects) and signed up for Busso half in May. The best part though is, in the last few weeks, I have become happy. Really bloody happy. I've emotionally cut the ties with him, finally, and feel free. I have a long way to go. I've gained a lot of weight, lost a lot of fitness and feel alone a lot of the time, but I am on my way back. Look out Trannies.